Monday, October 18, 2010
18th October 2010
Right now, at this very moment, 6.20pm, Monday, 18th of October..... Fion Lim have one huge desire that she really wants to do right after her finals and that is....
Jeng Jeng Jeng....
ICE-SKATING! Somehow I just really miss the skating rink. It feels like my soul is tied to it. Like I accidentally left my soul there and it's urging me to go back to the rink to go claim it back. And that is how much I miss the skating rink. I haven't skate for more than a year now. I guess all my skating skills have gone rusty.
Please don't bring me anywhere near the rink anymore. Me and my mates went over to pyramid the other day and every time I see the rink, my heart just feels all overwhelmed and the feeling of resisting myself to go anywhere near it feels like a harsh thing that I'm doing, forbidding myself to do something that I want so badly.
Does that sound complicated? If yes, try imagine that you are really hungry as you have been forbidden to eat for days and there's like a huge buffet right in front of you but you're not allowed to eat anything. Pain? Ouch? Yes, definitely. This goes hand in hand with what I'm feeling now.
It's so close, yet so far at the same time. You want it so badly yet you can't have it and to make things worse, it's just right in front of you and all you have to do is reach out to grasp it but you're not allowed.
I definitely don't have time for skating right now. My schedule is packed with Mr. Finals. But you know what? Mr. Finals, I'm so dumping you right after my exams. You're mean.
To be honest, there's actually part of me that wants my exams to be over asap but there's also a huge part of me that doesn't want it to come so fast. *Maksud tersirat*
Anyway, what have I been yapping and hopping on? Argh... Ignore me. I think stress mode has finally kicked in. Alright, gtg. Till then.
Labels: my soul, Skating
3:21 AM
Friday, October 15, 2010
15th October 2010
It seems like my blog is deprive of pictures huh? Ahhh, too lazy to go upload. =/
So it seems like things are getting better as the days pass by. People always said that running away from the facts is never a good solution. Indeed. So instead of running away, why not pick up the courage and convince yourself to embrace those facts? Won't you feel much more satisfied after that? I've been running 100 miles ahead until some sense finally kicked in my head and told me to stop and turn back. And I'm glad I did. After all, the 100 miles really exhaust my off.
I was browsing facebook moments ago and Uv's comment sort of caught my attention. He said that everything happens for a reason and it happens for the better. How far is this true? Well, that depends on individual. Everyone has different perception. To me, well, I don't know.
Think positive, think positive. Fion Lim, please be more optimistic and throw away those pessimistic thoughts of yours! This is one thing that I can never overcome. I bet loads of you out there have the same issue as me. Negative thoughts just somehow seem to be haunting your mind and there's nothing you can do with it especially at times when you're all so vulnerable.
Anyway, enough of beating around the bush. What am I actually talking about?
FINALS! Sobs! My finals are in like 2 weeks time. And my preparation level is like at -10%. How awesome could that be? *Please feel my sarcasm* I'm definitely not prepared. Deng! My focus this semester seems to be drifting away. Flying with the winds. Oh no. I need to get a grip. I'm starting to worry about not performing for this sem. See, negative thoughts. I haven't even sit for the exam yet. =.=
Ahh, enough. Cukup. Till then.
Labels: Optimistic vs Pessimistic
7:47 AM
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
12th October 2010
I have tonnes of mixed feelings today. My mood is once again swinging 360 degree. I woke up this morning feeling totally miserable. I didn't complete my money and caps homework and I was worried Dr. Nicole will ask me to go out and write answers on the board again. Then it was marketing tutorial. Well, that brought up my mood quite a bit. =)
Anyway skip skip skip, I had lunch with Chee today at Nandos. Yummmmm. We had a lil heart to heart chat. That boy doesn't usually update me on his currents. So called my good friend hor? Lolx. ANYWAY, Managed to dig out one of his deepest darkest secret. Yeah Man! Finally! XD
We had Baskin Robins after that. Another Yummmmm. I needed that. BR has a new flavour for the month. Must try! It taste abit like Praline... Yummmm.
Evil Chee here spilt out some true facts todays. It was like a punch right in the face. No mercy at all. Sobs. But I thank you for that. And yes Chee, true friends stabs from the front. I get that fact. So thank you for stabbing me right from the front. OUCH! Haha. Not gonna mention right here though. It's a lil private.
Ohhh! and the psychology test! Awesome Chee! I shall not let nature decide for me anymore. Why? Coz it's my decision and my life, so I shall make those decision myself. *wink*
Two idioms I would like to bring up today: -
(1) Words are sharper than knives itself. (Totally true)
(2) It is always easier said than done. (Totally true again)
Ps: Though curiosity is eating me up, I trust you 34345467.
Labels: Nandos + BR
8:23 AM
Friday, October 8, 2010
9th October 2010
Kau tahu betapa ku sayang padamu,
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti,
Ooohhhhhh
Hanya takdir menentukan ia,
Oh, belaian jiwa.
Went to Marche for lunch with my mum and mum decided to go grocery shopping at Tesco. And they were playing Belaian Jiwa repetitively and now its stuck in my head.
Its a nice song though. I used to love this song loads when I was in secondary school. Brings back sweet memories. =)
I had ice cream today. Yummm. There's nothing wrong with having a sweet tooth right? XD
Marketing Submission and Financial Accounting Assignment due on Monday and I'm still not done with them yet. Haiz. And to make things worse, I'm having a migraine now. =.=
Arghh. Alright, till then.
Labels: Belaian Jiwa
11:25 PM
Sunday, October 3, 2010
3rd October 2010
Beginning of a new month means allowance time! XD
My parents always calls me the "Tai Yi Loong" during the beginning of each month. Lolx. Cause I'll start bugging them for allowances. Hehe. I'm pretty broke now actually. Been spending big bucks during the hols. But like what CJA always says... "Sometimes, girls need to pamper themselves once in a while". Lolx. And I'm pampering myself with all the good food in the world. XD I need to satisfy my cravings too yeah know? *wink*
Like every other Sunday, today I was flipping the newspaper. The StarMag Session. =) I was reading this article from Heart & Soul entitled "Fatal Attraction". Though its pretty short, I really like one small part of Thelma's comment. Just one small paragraph in that article. Her comment really makes sense and it goes hand in hand with CJA and CCZ's advice.
And you know what? CJA & CCZ, I'll heed your advise this round. *wink* Cause it does really make sense. I was practically laughing my arse when I read it. Lolx.
Alright, till then. =)
Labels: Fatal Attraction
5:30 AM
